Questions?Comments?Concerns?

Man I feel bad for leaving work early. That moment where all these impatient yet silly faces are piercing your clothes. They wonder what I am doing? I wonder the same. HOW can they be so clueless? It was too much, the moment was heavy. Weighing on my struggling frame and mind. But I'll be back tomorrow. Take two, and try again..
Need to rest up. Countdown to Hawaii. Thats right 14 days. Let the commencement commence. Chill in bed, listen to music.. Catch up on House and The Office. As long as Pam and Jim stay together, I can support that show. Go Mr. Novak!
A wonderful end to a scary/emotional week. The thought of losing something important can wake you up. Funny how emotions overtake some, and only slightly effect other. Or is this a facade? Emotions can bring out the horrible, moldy, infectious monster out of us all. With good reason granted. Greatful for what I still "have", although limited.

Of a good thing...

Shouldnt have to go without. Somethings dont feel the same without you. When we are apart, I yearn for you. Wish for you. Think of You. Where are you? Will you be there, where we parted? Will our relationship change? Like rain amongst river, will we connect once more? Or will our affair be a struggle until I re-capture you, seduce you, manipulate you, too many times to number. We are close, so let nothing pry us apart for too long. Bittersweet is our connection, too close and we become one. I give myself to you. Sleep eternal.

WHY

is Julian so bitter?

are fat people the 1st to need a pat down?

does Matt always smell?

These are the questions....

For just $5 more...

Nothing is free. Work for everything, especially if its worth something. If you mean something to me, im going to show you. 

Problems arent serious until its your problem. No one cares unless its parked in front of their house. Then its an eyesore and threatens the facade of safety, that we hold so dear.

Living in my own world. If im not looking at you, I cant remember your name. I know your important, but I have problems keeping my focus or is it my priorities?

Where's Ajia? 

Can I buy some of your time?  

You act like....

Im MIA.

New job, acquaintances, regulations, people and conflicts to avoid. All things new, but constant in my former thoughts. 

Fill out a form to bury your problems. The system is built for failure and paperwork gets "lost" amongst the confusion. Massive chaos masked with the staunch "Yes sir, I can take of that for you(attitude)." Torn between customer service and perfecting procedure. Constantly distracted by blue stripes, red and white.

Blue light + White sheets= Blue Sheets, eyes closed.  Headstrong, but proud of my reasons. Strong mind and sense is way better than no will power. Not perfect. Know what I want though.

like........"im the finest guy you ever seen." 

Star wars and Gaston.

Ignorance is Bliss

3The worst knowledge is about yourself. All the make up and forced smiles dont change how you feel about yourself. Playing the "What If" game is always lose/lose.

No magic eraser.

Anxious and nervous. Stress leads to health problems.  Health problems increase stress level. Worrying about the "what if's" and "how come's" of life only gets you an aneurysm. Nevertheless, I am apprehensive about my new chapter.

Moving on is difficult, especially when the "past" is a new text message in your Ultimate Inbox. When their words are permanent marker, throw the next two pages away. Words always bleed in to the next page. 

Life breaks the rules and slams your head with a metal chair. But still an optimist.